I wanted to write this to let you guys all know what's up now in my life and also extend on some of my previous entries.

First off, I work two jobs now -_- one as a secretary at a local farm [which is where I got all those calf pictures] and the second is at a restaurant as a hostess that serves on occasion ^^. It's all fine I guess, at first it used to cut into my school time. I wouldn't do any hmwrk, I didn't keep up with all my college things. I had a minor breakdown and worked through all of it with my mother. Now I know where I'm going to college, the time I'll be going, my schedule, the cost and where I'll be dorming... so I'm doing a lot better on that note.

I have caught up with all my hmwrk and am getting a B or higher in all my classes. [the 4 I take, ]

Anyways, I have made ammends with my father and stepmother. I actually did a long time ago, more to the point, a few weeks after writing '.... Life as of now.' on Oct 27th, 2006... o.O that was a long time ago... anyhooo, me and my father are closer than ever, we talked about everything and I have been keeping in contact with him as often as I can now. My stepmother actually helped me realize that I really just blamed them for all my problems, I really had no proof to. I guess I just more thought of how shitty I felt and I had nothing else to blame it on.

I can actually talk more openly with my father and my stepmother now, rather than the parents that I'm living with. It's pretty lame that I wasted all that time while I lived with them because I blamed them, and now I realized that a lot of what they said was right. I just wish I could go back, but then I also might not have learned the lessons that I did, and I also might not have the even closer relationship that I have with them now.

The only thing that I really want to apologize for would be that, that and the fact that when I started my second job I went complete bitch-zilla on my best friend. I got into the most ridiculous fight you could ever imagine with someone that has helped me through more things then I could ever properly thank her for.....

As a completely positive ending note, school is good, my jobs kick ass and I finally know what I'm going to do with my future. I'm closer to my family now more than ever and I love them all so much more than words can ever express... I'm so blessed.

-kris